365 Days Binge Free - My Story & Facing Recovery

I've managed to stay binge free for one year by learning to listen to my body and decode what it was trying to tell me all along. Before I get into how I did this I want to address the elephant in the room. Binge eating disorder (or BED) affects as many as 5% of our youth. It is THREE TIMES more prevalent than both anorexia and bulimia combined. This is a terrifying statistic. Honestly I had no idea that SO MANY people like myself were struggling to develop a healthy relationship with food from such a young age.

I was about 12 when I started being more "food conscious". I started eating more in size and in secret as well. I would hide snacks in a suitcase under my bed so that my ambien induced step-dad wouldn't eat them all.

I would push around the food on my plate during dinner but would destroy a two bags of chips, some candy and half a pack of soda in one hour sitting alone in my room.

I remember the first time someone commented on my eating habits approximately a few months before this behavior began. Something as simple as "are you going to eat MORE hot cheetos?" in a condescending tone while looking at me up and down was enough to send me into a shame-induced secret eating frenzy where food was my only comfort.

It eventually evolved into eating more openly and with more likeminded people. I would often binge with my mom or best friend at "all you can eat" type restaurants and once the feeling of overwhelming fullness started going away I'd be planning my next meal.

Binge Eating Disorder is characterized by: Eating a large amount of food in a short amount of time;

Feeling a loss of control around food;

Eating at a rapid pace;

Eating until uncomfortably full;

Eating even when not hungry;

Feeling of shame about amount of food eaten;

Usually these symptoms generally persist multiple times a week for months or years in order to be diagnosed. I displayed all of these symptoms without realizing it. I knew I was out of control eating but I had always thought it was just because it'd be hours in-between eating and I felt like I was "star